Seasons Change

I moved to Nashville in 2002, just 2 months after marrying my best friend, Seth.  Countless performances, songs written with hit writers and all those in between, 17 indie cuts (some of my favorites being Winfield's Locket, Joe Robinson, and Heather Land) - and what do I have to show for my time?  A heart and perspective - changed.

I used to believe in order to evangelize, I would need to bring the message to the world by singing secular music.  Over the years God showed me that the people I needed to evangelize most are in the church, thus wildly changing my course and bringing me into a new season.

I'm still singing and songwriting, but now I'm entering into something so many said I would do one day: speaking.  The fear of sharing my personal life kept me paralyzed for over two decades because it affects my entire family and I would never want to hurt them emotionally or bring their trauma back to the forefront.  

Accepting that I don't have control over anyone's feelings or actions has been part of my own healing.  Shame and perceived rejection caused me to embrace people-pleasing and consistently allow my discomfort for everyone else's comfort.  One of the scriptures that holds me accountable is:

1 Thessalonians 2:4 NLT “Our purpose is to please God, not people. He alone examines the motives of our hearts.”

It's either here and now where I say "yes" to Him - as impossible as this feels, or suffer the agony of not walking out this deep-rooted call.  

Most importantly, who am I to say 'no' to God's prompting?  We don't gain healing in the dark.  We gain healing (and those around us do, too) when what is in the dark is brought into the light.

Have you ever felt like that?  You know what you need to do, whether professionally, spiritually, or otherwise - and you need to take those uncertain steps straight into what you can't see.  I've been waste deep in the River - struggling to hold my place, instead of laying down my right to fight, and going with the flow...His flow. 

You see, He is okay with my imperfection.  He is okay that I don't know it all.  He knows what I don't.  I am learning to TRUST for the first time in my life.  I mean...really trust.  Trust is one of my biggest struggles. When you read The Story That Built My Life In Christ, you'll understand why.

Have you ever believed your broken beginnings defined you?  I have.  Here is what I believe now - I've gained something from those broken beginnings...God's Word says, "beauty for ashes."  And I am coming into agreement with His Spirit that says, "I am loved, I have value, and I have purpose."  I'm casting my shy nature and fear of man aside, and I'm pursuing the eternal with a sober understanding - life can change in a moment. 

If you're ready to move forward in your own life, and you could use insightful tools + encouragement + laughter, would you join me?  Living with intention is so much easier to achieve when you have SUPPORT that is rooted in Truth.  And so much easier when there's some fun in the mix! I'm here for you! YOU are my "why."

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